The last four month of my life have been a roller coaster. Last week on October 11th my grandfather passed away. The following is the obituary placed in the paper:
Salvatore C. Caruso (Sal) , USAF Master Sgt. (Retired)
Born June 4, 1932 Boston, MA, deceased October 11, 2012 Montgomery, AL
Survived by his wife of 38 years Emily Waters Caruso, his children Debra West (Steve), Angela Tucker (Steven), Rebecca Waters, Craig Waters (Arla), Kirk Waters (Dawn), 15 grandchildren and 14 great grandchildren.
Sal is warmly remembered as a loving husband and father who dutifully served his country in the USAF and after retirement in a Civil Service capacity including Youth Director at Maxwell AFB.
As an avid golfer who achieved two "hole in ones" he shared his love of the game with family and friends. His passion for gardening brought joy to all who entered his beautiful yard.
As I was listening to the Loving/Kindness meditation, I found that it was hard but good. I felt that I could at least take some of the pain away from my grandmother and send her comfort and love.
I dont think I have ever had a "quiet mind". It is always going, it is the reason that I do not sleep like I should. I am learning with this class and doing the meditation it is helping slow it down. My body is also talking to me too, it is telling me that I need to stop and realize what I am doing. There are changes that I need to make, but I feel a little lost as to what those changes are. I know they will come to me I have to be patient, something I am still learning after 37 years.
Stacey Clark
Stacey,
ReplyDeleteFirst I want to say I am sorry about your families loss. This is never an easy thing to get through! Thanks for sharing your in your post his obituary. This is a different approach, and very personal, so I commend you on this! I can see with this loss that you may find it easier to do the loving kindness for your grandmother. I found it hard because the people in my life thankfully have minimal issues going on, money regular stress. At times I am the one that needs the loving kindness breathed my way out of the people in my life. :) This is why I have changed everything about my life. Something I was doing wasn't working and I have to do whatever it is to figure out how to make me happy. I am learning as I go. Nothing is really "coming to me" but I am just taking risks or making decisions I wouldn't typically make in order to get new opportunities coming my way. New doors opening. I too dont know what a quiet mind feels like and would love to use the tools in this class to figure that out. I have high hopes for the next year of my life, and I wish you well in your journey as well!!! Great post, and again Im sorry for your grandpa!
Very sorry to hear about your grandfather. It is always hard to lose a loved one. When you talk about you never really having a quiet mind, I also share that quality with you. When it is time to lay down and go to bed, I am always trying to look forward to the next move to figure what to do and where I need to go next. Either that, or I am worried about a problem that I know that I am going to face the next day. In essence, I feel like I always have something going on in my life and in my mind.
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